Today was a great day! I got up and prayed and I also talked to Jadon (up in Baby Heaven) this day was date night. I had to make a couple of stops because I had to get my paperwork ready so I can go back to work. I went to my mother’s house and I ran into a old friend of mines. I talked to my Little sis and then I went back out to meet my mother at her Job. On my way up there I open my book to read the quote of the day and this was really eye opening to me:
1 king 19:11-12
I thought about this because the number stood out to me 1 19 11 (Jadon birthday) 12 (the days he was here on earth) and King (part of his last name). See I notice everything but this was really overwhelming for me because when I prayed I ask God a question I asked, “God how will I know when to move?” I feel like I’m standing still and everything is moving so fast and I want to move…..and the answer came to me hours later on the bus ….
11And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake:
12And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.
This made me feel happy because I must stay still until God whisper to me the go ahead. God’s voice wasn’t in the overwhelming tragedies that happen in my life but in that small voice I wasn’t able to hear. So from hear on out I will patiently wait and not force myself into understanding about life’s downfalls but to let it happen and wait for God to whisper in my ear once again :)….
Just wanted to let you know that i have read with great interest you story about How God spoke to you through His word as you were mourning your son. It was very moving.
I have looked also aaat your slouch hat patterns as i was searching for the right one to use to make a rasta hat for a friend who asked me to make her one.
please also if you have the pattern for the baby hat you made? I also make preemie baby blankets to give to hospitals and haven’t yet found a baby hat that is easy for me to crochet.
I would like to try your pattern if you have written it. May the Lord God bless you with His peace!
Dear Jessica,
I read about your lost of yours and your Husband Baby, I am so sorry!! I understand your feelings to what you are doing, I think It’s wonderful and you are trying to move on, each day Is a healing process. My Husband & I have three children they’re all grown up young adults, first pregnancy was miscarriage that was very hard on me I was emotional roller coaster. When my Daughter and two Sons were born I don’t think I ever got any sleep with fear of Sids. I hope someday If I may say? You will try again for little one and that Baby will full fill your heart with a lot of love!!
I looked at your beanies & earrings they are really cute.
Thank you for sharing!!! You sound like a very caring person! I’m sure people like myself appreciates being taught with your tutorials. You’re good teacher !!
Merry Christmas to you and your Family
Sincerely
Donna Williams
Thank you so much for reading my post đŸ™‚ I have a very strong faith in God and each day me and my husband try our best to have a close relationship to God. I was self-taught (crocheting) and youtube help me as well and I’m just paying it forward by teaching and helping others. May you have a very Bless Christmas.