Today was a great day! I got up and prayed and I also talked to Jadon (up in Baby Heaven) this day was date night. I had to make a couple of stops because I had to get my paperwork ready so I can go back to work. I went to my mother’s house and I ran into a old friend of mines. I talked to my Little sis and then I went back out to meet my mother at her Job. On my way up there I open my book to read  the quote of the day and this was really eye opening to me:

1 king 19:11-12

I thought about this because the number stood out to me 1 19 11 (Jadon birthday) 12 (the days he was here on earth) and King (part of his last name). See I notice everything but this was really overwhelming for me because when I prayed I ask God a question I asked, “God how will I know when to move?” I feel like I’m standing still and everything is moving so fast and I want to move…..and the answer came to me hours later on the bus ….

¹¹And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake:

¹²And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

This made me feel happy because I must stay still until God whisper to me the go ahead. God’s voice wasn’t in the overwhelming tragedies that happen in my life but in that small voice I wasn’t able to hear. So from hear on out I will patiently wait and not force myself into understanding about life’s downfalls but to let it happen and wait for God to whisper in my ear once again :)….